Series: Hawks Motorcycle Club Book 4.5
Author: Lila Rose
Publication Date: June 4, 2015
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*Synopsis*Living a lie, Matthew ‘Mattie’ Alexander is exhausted. It’s not easy to keep up the pretence, the deceit, but it’s safer. Coming out to a world who so easily hate takes a courage he’s yet to find, so he pretends – pretends to be into women – pretends to love being a part of the university’s football team. It keeps him safe, hidden.
Until he meets Julian.
From the moment they first meet, Mattie knows life is about to change. He’s yet to determine if it is for the better or worse.
Living life through laughter, Julian is lonely. Without the jokes, the humour, he would be living on the edge of depression. Succumbing to his controlling father’s demands, Julian finds no joy in the path laid out before him.
Until he meets Mattie.
As soon as they cross paths, Mattie has the power to drive Julian’s man parts crazy with lust. But can lust be enough to help Mattie out of the closet, and guide Julian into a happier place?
Limits will be pushed. Rules will be broken. But it’s only together, that they will have the strength to overpower fear, fear of themselves and fear of others. Just how far are they willing to go in the aim of coming out?
Mattie is a 19 year old jock, hiding his true self from his teammates and family. Tired of living a lie he finally comes out to his parents, but isn't ready to tell anyone else, knowing that they will react negatively. But then he meets Julian who is brought in to massage Mattie and his teammates after their practices. Julian is a 36 year old man, doing his paren't bidding to protect his cousin from them. Mattie tries to fight the attraction he feels toward Julian, but that's just not possible.
"I'm your number one stalker now and I'm not letting you go."
This book was so different than what I was expecting. I have loved Julian ever since I read Holding Out and was looking forward to getting his and Mattie's story. It ended up being a lot darker than what I thought, though. Julian didn't have a good past, and I wanted to seriously go learn some kick ass ninja skills and then go and beat his parents repeatedly. It's really amazing to know what an awesome, funny person he becomes even after dealing with his shitty past.
I think that if I never read the first books in this series than Coming Out would have been a five star read. But after seeing Julian in those books I was disappointed by his character in this one. He wasn't as crazy and out there as he was in the authors. He is one of my favorite characters from this series, but his character just wasn't the same in this.
Overall, this is a really good read and had some very smexy times that were HAWT ;) There was a lot of emotional parts dealing with some heavy issues that gave me a really different look at these characters that I liked.